you deserve a smack

school is fine but without counting in the waking up early in the morning and rush to school part.
guess wad now. im at home!

SUPPOSE to be in school to attend the ITAB lesson (computer IT).
I OVERSLEPT AGN. by the time i rush to school i'll miss out about 45 mins of lesson. it's 3 hours by the way. feeling really tired and worn out these days. havent really adapt the poly lifestyle.

the reasons of why i oversleep so many times.

1. lethargic the whole time

2. used to the rush to school mode. PL only takes 5 mins or lesser to run to school for me (DAMN NEAR). so im rather used to it. SP take one hour to travel. CRAP.

3. got pulled out of my comfort zone. school is no longer as fun as it used to be.

some ppl in my class just pisses me off the WHOLE TIME. ok i am petty. SO WHAT!
i nicely ask this person a qn cause i was in a daze ( almost the whole time in the school) and couldnt understand. this person just say that it's so simple! WTF. i went home to analyse and got it. not about simple math, it's about the conversion that i've forgotten. -.- it's simple but den at that time i just couldnt get it wad.

well. i have intentions of like interacting with this person cause most of the girls hardly mix with this person. bonding session with ur classmates? i dont understand why is there segregation in my class. hope it gets better in time to come.

i've seen so many different types of ppl. i cant imagine wad type of ppl i will see in the workforce.

oh. hahaha. I HATE SP TOILETS. cause i cant see my face in the mirrors (some of my classmates experience the same thing) -.- i've got to use the full length mirror. PISSED OFF cause i tipped toe also no use! -.-

SMILEY

i choose to be happy today, tmr and the day after tmr.
MONDAY, see how. haha.

CHECK THIS OUT MAN. brother introduced to me.
THE BEARDYMAN:



check out his myspace. HE'S COOL MAN.
http://www.myspace.com/beardyman
i only find the later part of his songs nice. anw cool dude! HIS LIPS LOOK LIKE CAMEL'S LIPS LEH. but SO WHAT. he's talented. :D

i shall be a happy girl and make schooling fun! (:

even a message makes me happy :D

the need to smile

blah. blah. blahhh...

school is pretty boring.. to me.

and i dont knw why i feel so dam tired at the second day of school!

HAHA. ONLY THE FIRST WEEK LEH! IM GG TO DIE.

nothing much. only a few proper lectures and a lot of crapping from the teachers.

the teachers are not very boring, they crack some lame jokes. which makes me smile just for a while. ECONS, some parts are boring while some are interesting. HAHA SHE SERIOUSLY REMIND ME OF THIS BEAUTIFUL LADY :

HAHAHAHA SERIOUS. NOT KIDDING. LOOK EXACTLY LIKE HER! but too bad, my lecturer still cant beat this lady. Mrs Judy Wong is hilarious man. i still can rmb the first time i met her. she called me girl when i just came out of the toilet. asked me to go to general office to get her a sisscors. the only thing that caught my attention is not her face. IS HER SHOES! decorated with shiny blue circular circles that kids would wear! the lady at general office was damn irritating and didnt quite believe that it is mrs judy wong who wanted to borrow it. hahaha!!! miss her :(

still rmb my class all went mad laughing cause she got the sleeping marks/lines on her face!!! DAMN FUNNY.

im not kidding.

my classmates are reading up on notes and textbooks :O

ONLY THE FIRST WEEK which is the honeymoon period which i've already planned that i shldnt touch anything and (TRY TO ENJOY MYSELF FIRST). before the real thing starts.

but i already feel so damn stressed when i havent even take out the notes from my bag! PPL HAVE ALREADY STARTED THEIR ENGINE AND IM STILL IDLEING!

seriously, im still wondering whether i chose the right course or not.

but if the mood in my class can just lighten a little, i will feel so much better :(

anw, this is God's plan and i have to follow Him.

I NEED TO SMILE MORE OFTEN!

HELP :(

I.DREAD.COMING.MONDAY

I NV DONT WANT SMT SO BAD.

i've been complaining so much about school starting on this blog but i dont feel any better.

i dont want monday to come AT ALL.

but i cant stop this mother earth from spinning.

i feel so much freedom and comfort during this holiday, that i even have the time to rot. like i got the time to let go of my thoughts and let it fly all the way to pluto and come back.

love the feeling.

most probably for the next 3 years, my brain can only walk around singapore. pathetic description but TRUE WAD. maybe i dont even have the time to think of wad's in my mind.

wah i realise im quite pessimistic about life.

ok... i go google whether optimist will live longer or not..

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/635292.stm

KNS. IM GG TO DIE EARLIER :D

aiya. at different stages of life, we view each stage differently so confirm wont stay pessimistic forever. IM NOT GG TO BELIEVE THIS.

this week was my orientation week.

i expected it to be more interactive and more activities to be installed for us. but it didnt go that way. honestly, i didnt get my dream class. anw... maybe they havent show their wild side yet. i did try to interact with them but there're some awkward silences which i buay ta han and voiced it out with laughter. one of the GLs and a guy also voiced it out. hahaha. just hope that as days passed by, they'll be more active and crazy! ok lah. the guys are quite warmed up, just the girls.. haha. shall not comment much. was a mute in church last time. HAHA.

oh, great thing about my classmates. they dont curse at all. SO FAR... hahaha! even "wah lao" also hardly hear from the guys.. amongst the girls, i think i swear quite a bit. heh, im a litta gangster mei. HAHAHAHAHA. i feel that if we didnt set any expectations in life, we'll be more happy right? but agn, with no expectations, we'll still be living in kampongs. I LOVE CHARLIE!

ok my worst nightmare has yet to come. i got to learn A math because i took up POA during sec school. CAN EAT SHIT AND DRINK LAO SAI. my weakest subject back in sec school is back to haunt me. i pray that it'll be my best in poly. AMEN.

DAC 10! oh. heard that my class got the most money for flag day! met at potong pasir at 7. but i freaking woke up ay 6.50. heh. anw i collected $66.05. WHO'S THE MAMA MAN. HAHAHA! we were like morning ghosts to those who were rushing for work. anw, this shows that singaporeans still got compassion. HANNAH DING ONLY COLLECTED 4 PLUS AND CHONG 6 PLUS. hahahahahahahahahahahaha. heard they got friends who collected 1 plus. ultimate champion.

here's DAC 10 with two lovely facilitators (:

showers of blessings

im really happy because im officially a member in my church! i actually wanted to buy books that help me in my spiritual walk and i got 3 good books today as presents! so it saves a whole lot of hassle of choosing books and the fickle minded me will take years to choose when im alone.

yep. hard to describe this feeling in my heart. im truely grateful to those who showed me care and concern in church. i thank God for giving my family good health and so far copping good in terms of finance and studies. although right now my bank only left 2 digits. if my mom knows about this, she will take a knife and chase me around hougang area. which also explains why i havent got my guitar... maybe i shld go teach tuition. and when im all lonely, God is always there for comfort. not forgetting the good friends which He had placed them in my life.

when i miss my dad, He's there for me. telling me how fortunate that my family members are still around.


THERE'S NOTHING TOO BIG THAT MY GOD CANNOT DO! FOR YOU!



I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication it's only conversation
I love it when you call
But you never call at all

HALLELUJAH!

im gg to be baptised this sunday. im happy. is like taking the next step of faith.

asked my brother to go to my church this sunday to witness? he said he cant cause he's busy. not busy with his work or wad. busy fishing with his friends. not as if the fishes in the world are gg to deplete right? im just disappointed? dad is over the other side of the world working. only my mom in the family is there to witness. im just so happy that my mom is always there for me. crap. i feel like crying now. haha my cousin will be there too! yay!

ANYWAY, im in deep shit. i need to prepare a testimony this sunday and speak in front of everyone. GOSH. IM SCARED. i might pee in my pants. definitely my face will turn instant red once i grab hold of the microphone.

ytd i met caryn! it's been a long time. haha we miss each other. we went to eat the tou huay stall over at serangoon and went to vivo to window shop cause i've got no money. ate fish sliced noodle and felt super boated. chill out at the sky park. we enjoyed the breeze and there's no beautiful scenery, only 32 cranes in total that i've counted. she ate ice cream and i swallowed air. HAHA NO MONEY. nice catching up with her. i knw she's feeling super sweet now that she's talking to her eyecandy. wah biang, good life. me leading a sad life. HAHA.

saw this particular terrier at vivo's pet shop. SO CUTE! it's quite brown, not so white. and it's only 2 months. so small. i used to prefer cats to dogs. but cats are quite self centred but the thing is they like cleanliness! caryn told me that her friend was crying and her friend's dog went to lick her tears away. awww.

pls, stop poking ur nose into everything. they will not learn like that. let them resolve everything themselves.

so close,yet so far

hahahahahaha LOOK INTO MY EYESSSS.

BEAUTYFULL

church friends! <3

yes. just came back from genting few days back but my heart is still over there. love the rides esp the space shot which sends you up to about 12 storey high and drops you to ground level, pulls you back and drops you agn. the first drop makes ur heart sink right down to hell and the pulling back makes me want to die. i thought i was about to die for the first drop and i kept screaming "oh my god". haha. sat twice! enjoyed it cause it's damn thrilling and at the same time i scared until want to die. it's an accomplishment man!

PRIRATE SHIP. i dont like viking but anw i sat at the second last row. this indian man damn funny. he sat behind me and he was so freaking scared that he was pulling off his friend's shirt and hugging his friends beside him. HIS EXPRESSION WAS PRICELESS. just look at my traumatised face before i took off.
hung there for about 10 secs before it drops, nice scenery (:

love the temperature there too. 28 degrees? and the humidity is about 70%. come on, singapore is freaking hot compared to genting's cool air which constantly blows into ur face. ok, stupid to complain about weather. it's an unchangeable fact that singapore is a hot country. love the arcade there. I WANT THE HUGE BEAR WHICH NEEDS 50 000 TICKETS TO GET IT :( it looks so damn huggeable. stay there for a lifetime also cant get it lah. a note was pasted on the bear which says "pls take me home with u...". the person who wrote that can EAT HIMSELF.

this is YUMMY!!!!



there got nothing much to shop. but lots of cheap clothes, you need to dig the shop in order to find nice clothes. the food there are delicious (: esp the ramly burger!!!! SO DIFFERENT FROM SINGAPORE'S VERSION. haha. i want to "buy" that malay guy home so he can make ramly when i want to eat. heh heh. singapore damn high tech now, ur passport is like ur ez link card and they import the handprint scanner thing. singapore act cool. HAHA WTH.

oh, the go-kart daytona thing damn funny. i was in the go kart thing and this malay guy in charge came and talk to me in malay. i said huh to him which obviously means i-dont-understand. he repeat wad he said i think. this time i said huh and give him e "huh" look. but he continue whatever shit he was saying. i gave up and kept nodding at him and say yes yes yes. WAH BIANG EH. the "huh" look and "huh" not international language meh. VOOM VOOM i zoomed off man.



didnt sit the cable car though but i sat the trains at KL. we got lost! but thank god for nancy (: her ability of speaking malay cause she's a malaysian. haha. they dont have ez link card yet. the cabins are not link and the cards they used are the flimsy kind which you insert and take it out from the top of the machine and push the metal thing to get in. the mrt door almost kiap me to death. so next time when you take the trains there, hurry go in.

HAHAHA MY DEAR COUSIN CAN SLEEP JUST ABOUT ANYWHERE WHEN SHE'S TIRED!

genting is like a get away for this holiday. so im happy cause i didnt get to go anywhere except genting. but i so want to go back cause school is freaking starting. orientation is just next week. kill me nowwwww. the momentum to study had stopped long time ago in bethlehem so there's surely a problem to get my engine started. SI LIAO. gonna faint when i see the projectors.

goodnight goodbye my dear friends.

don't dare to try

"I knew only too well how painful it was to hold out hope for something and then to be disappointed yet again" -joe peters (Cry Silent Tears)

afraid to feel the pain? so i dont dare to try.

cant get you out of my mind

i must say i regret!!!! i took my long long holiday for granted. and in no time the torturous school is gg to start and im gg to be no where except school and home. WAD IS THIS MAN. no more sleeping till 2pm shiokness, i cant do random things as much, cant chill out with friends as much.. didnt do wad i've planned. im such a sucker. anw, yes. i've set my heart on a few tasks now and i've confidence that i can complete them :D


came back from camp. i must say the culture there and the culture over at PL has a vast lot of difference. not because there're guys arnd. is just.. haha i miss PL. i kept to myself quite abit over there. find myself rather awkward there. not an outcast, like im just misplaced in a bunch of ppl whom i cant really relate to except for a few ppl in my group.


some ppl thinks that im a quiet person, but also quite active at the same time. like a stuck in the middle thing? which agn, im damn sian of it. but this camp let me see a spectrum of ppl. from the bimbos to the damn deserve to get smack ppl. from the attract attention ppl to the very quiet but deep down inside them, there is a wild cat hidden somewhere waiting to emerge. HAHAHAHAHA. met this girl from the other bunk and we went to the toilet tgt. our mindsets about the same and we bitched about a bimbo in the toilet. JOKE man. but she made me feel so comfortable. honestly, seeing those fake fronts make me want to puke. anw, definitely made friends, exchanged nos and stuff. (:


im gg off to genting tmr night. im outta singapore soon!!! got the ringgits and off i go to go wild! excited to the max! no matter how scary the rides are, no matter how scared i am gg to be. im not gg to waste my money and try all of them.




genting! WO LAI LE!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA.



aqualung! i'm gg to get his new album (: i first fall in love with his song brighter than sunshine in the movie a lot like love and also discovered that he's damn talented. he started to write songs ever since he knw how to hold a pen! at the age of 4, he started writing songs and at 16 he got recognised. KILL MEE.. at the age of four i still cant give up my milk bottle can.

i love his first album and the song strange and beautiful is oh so nice (:

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
unseen.

To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see, lyric's top
And you'll realise that you love me.